Bettering Me

I don’t believe in New Years’ Resolutions.

I’ve seen so many people make them and brake them, that I’ve always wondered why anyone would even bother. If I had a dollar for every resolution my friends posted on Facebook between now and January 5, I’d be able to buy something really cool and something I never get; like a haircut and dye at a bon-a-fide Aveda salon. 

These thoughts all started Friday when I got a call from my best friend/cousin. I started to complain about the same ol thing that I always complain about, and she promptly told me to quit my complaining. The NERVE! This is the chick that I have weekly venting sessions with, this is the chick that knows all my secrets, this is the chick that I have secret phrases and jokes with, this is my partner in crime! The NERVE! 

So, in utter aghast I quit my complaining and we had our quick conversation. 

By Sunday (today), her words were still resonating within my mind. She was absolutely right. Every time I talk to her, I tell her all about this one single issue in my life that, now that I truly look at it, is consuming my thoughts and my life and causing my attitude to break down and my stress to skyrocket.  

Venting and complaining are two different things. What I thought was simple venting was wearing her down, and she’s not the only one that I vent err....complain to. I never thought about the stress that I was causing her, I’ve only thought of myself, which is almost exactly what I’ve been complaining about. My talk became vent that became complaint, and I need to stop. 

I only make promises that I keep, which is why I say, “I promise” usually only maybe about twice a year. Seriously. It’s why I’ve never made a New Years resolution and think its stupid when others make resolutions that they don’t keep. I just figure that I’m not going to promise something, especially to myself, that I may fail at. I always set goals, and sometimes meet them, but this time, I’m somewhere in between a goal and a promise. Either way - I’m going to change myself. For myself.